so skipped my 8am lesson today.
i once made my decision.
that i would stay on in sbm club even without my babe.
however.
this time round.
its gonna be different.
babe told me alot alot alot of stuff.
babe told me not to think too much and blah blah blah.
BUT!
i seriously find it hard to face her if she gets in.
i find it very very awkard if i had work together with her.
i find it very very hard if i had to act as if she knows nothing when she does knows something.
and i find it dumb of myself that i always put myself in her shoes and make me feel BAD when i don't need to at all.
- at times, i just wished she wasn't so emo. ):
anyway.
this process i've got to face is a challenging one for me.
everytime when i was about to cheer up, another piece of crap would just get in and bring my mood down to the pit.
it makes me goes like; wadde!
enough of this tough feeling im facing everyday.
school has not been good.
a life of a year 2 student is seriously not easy.
we've got difficult modules to handle.
we've new classmate that we got to try to bond again.
anyway.
MS TOO HAS GET THROUGH IT THIS TIME ROUND.
'cause " giving up is not an option "
babe encourage me and stuff.
and i set her this question
- if you know you are not going to be happy after doing something, would you still do it?
but nvm.
i don't need that answer anymore.
'cause i guess i already know my own answer. (:
anyway.
enough of all the negative stuff.
'cause i think god has already plan a path for everyone.
and if it will happen, it will happen.
so all i can do, is to stay strong and have faith in god. (:
'cause its human nature that, only after being through the hard times, then you will learn to treasure things more.
and if god wants me to experience this challenging process.
then i shall go through it, 'cause after this challenging process.
there should something learn at the end.
and i guess, up tilll now.
all i can conclude for now is that;
太容易得到的东西，你不会懂得去珍惜
so so, im going to get things through the hard way, so that i will learn to treasure more.
- im amazed by my self reasoning and im surprised that after writing this whole paragraph, i actually felt better.
COOL.
haha.
& on the lighter note.
thanks babe for trying to cheer me up during lesson?
well, the fact is; she was just too bored.
therefore, she drew this.
anti-emo! hahah!
& thanks for the kinder chocolate! (:
and the note of encouragment! (:
the above photo is for you too! (:
anti-emo. (:
